If only you really knew me...
(via just-the-way-you-arent)
You’ve got your ball, you’ve got your chain, tied to me tight, tie me up again. Who’s got their claws in you my friend? Into your heart I’ll beat again.
Parents are away, so the party’s here to fucking stay.
How can you even do this to her? She’s my bestfriend and I never wanted her to have to go through this kind of pain like I have. Because of you, now she knows how it feels. She knows how it feels to feel this kind of hatred, disgust, and agony. She never deserved this or deserved to feel these kind of emotions because of you. I never wanted her to know how this shit felt. You demolished any sort of hope or happiness she had left in her. You don’t deserve her and frankly, probably never have. You don’t even realize how amazing she can be, and how she cares for you so much. You just don’t see that, do you? All the time, we talk and are there for one another, because we both know how it feels and we get each other so well. But I never wanted her to get this - not this. But you know what, she doesn’t need you. I’m gonna be the one there for her while you’re not. And while you’re off doing whatever you want with that, I’m gonna be the one who’s wiping her tears while we both cry, because I’m gonna be crying for her, wishing that she didn’t know how this situation felt. And I’m also going to be praying that the next time I see you, I don’t fuck your face up with all the anger I feel towards you for doing this to her.
I don’t think anyone can try to save me anymore.
Man, it’s days like this where I wish I could talk to you about things like this. But I can’t, and this sucks.
Wait, what’s school…?
“A white blank page, and a swelling rage, rage
You did not think, when you sent me to the brink, to the brink
You desired my attention, but denied my affections, my affections
So tell me now, where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart
Oh tell me now, where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart?”
~Mumford and Sons- White Blank Page~
